"I'm not "all that". Or at least, I haven't seen myself as "all that" for a long time - maybe never in our R. It matters that I'm rejected by H b/c well, I want H in our lives. I am trying my best to follow the "rules" and nothing seems to impact H"
Hmmm.. so what you are saying is that what you are doing.. is not working?
Why?
"I have always had self image issues with him b/c he is a pretty unbelievably gorgeous man and I've never felt that I was physically good enough for him."
I feel you on this to a point. Simple fact remains.. at one point he chose you.
Why?
"The real gem of it is that I need to be doing all of this for me and I can't ... I honestly can't ... everything I do is a calculated move to try and get him to re-discover me....re-discover us and I'm failing miserably and it makes me very, very sad."
Again.. the things we wish for.. are usually not the things that will benefit us the most.
I understand you want him.
He can likely see that he has you on the "line".
So what does he loose from all this.. Miss "ALLTHAT"?
"I don't know how to detach without moving on."
I like simple thoughts. I like thoughts that relate to "life".
"Detach"
I can detach my boat from the dock. There can be "currents" that make it move away. I hope it never "moves on" without me.
A boat will never "MOVE ON" without you.. unless your planning sucks!
"Someone" has to turn the key.. start the motor.. put it in gear.. and wave to the people on the dock.
Do you see the difference?
"I'm still so attached that I think I have confused the two. Thanks for your comments FG, much appreciated."
So you "see" it and don't trust your judgment?
Lemme throw this at you. I am 110% physical LL (Love Language).
Without saying TY.. how can you show me some love?
Now.. you has some "Work".
Last edited by Forrest Gump; 10/05/0903:05 AM.
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