So I have to admit I have not read you entire thread. Also so you understand my POV I'm having one of those "I'm so tired of being in this crappy one-way relationship" days. I'm questioning everything about myself and I'm not sure why.
So here is my question for you. Why do you want to be in a relationship with this woman?
She was pretty awesome up until a couple mo.s ago. She still is but this MLC is confusing her.
We were best friends for almost 10 yrs. She was my confidante, laughed at my bad jokes and made me feel special because I was her no. 1. Now I'm no. 124 or something. She's turned into an emotional wall. I can hear an undercurrent of resentment in her voice.
I think she's being influenced by an idiot therapist and is feeling like I make her feel small.
This is an alien, a strange doppelganger that I DON'T want to be in a R with. Under all that new weirdness is the core woman I love but I don't know if I can reach her until she wants it. And I don't have a clue when that will be. Right now I'm angry. This new person took my best friend, my lover and my family.
~Mark
Me: 38 W: 34 Together: 9yrs 1st M: may '03 1st D: april '08 1st bomb: june '08 remarried: oct '08 2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)
