It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

And the drama continues. W calls me and asks for no contact, states we can't be friends right now. Angry at this point, I tell her how I feel, esp. about behavior last night. Still have plans for Fri to take her to doctor but she's a freaking wall. It's so hard to see us back together. I'm so angry w/ her for taking away the most precious thing in my life. How did this happen? I'm lost. It's like a switch was flipped.

I heartily agree w/ her about the NC and at the same time hating that I can't just talk to my wife and enjoy being with her. I want her back. I did some my share of hurtful things but the pain and loss doesn't seem fair. Maybe it is, I don't know any more.

She told me I make her feel small. I never felt she was inferior in any way. That's all on her. If we were together I could spend every day telling her how amazing she is but this separation leaves me with no way to help either of us.