UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Hey Rabbit
I know what you are saying ... how can distance be a problem when H is travelling interstate to keep his a alive? He won't even push a button to speak to me at the moment!

I have just posted on undrdg's thread in regard control issues. I got up this morning feeling as flat as ... and yet my brain is working overtime in the Think Dept.! I didn't realise it before but H must be considering that he is now holding the controlling reigns as a 180 on me 'controlling' our lives in the past. I have not deliberately done so but we girls know how we have to get behind the men sometimes and push them along ... is that 'controllling'? If so, charge me, I am guilty.

I reckon there must be some low flying teddies around H's place this morning! He will have picked up my email and text by now (I figure) and he won't be happy that I am asking for this meeting. Thing is, I've worked out that, whilst I am now more than happy to pay my way whilst I am working, I'm not paying H's excess and he is not contributing enough ... we will be in a pickle mid-month if this is not sorted out. As he's going off on his business trip, I need to sort things and soon. I expect that this will be another step too far for him.

I have not forgotten my challenge Rabbit but I have not been very forthcoming in a solution for out and about GAL'ing. What I have decided instead (until I can achieve my goal) is to be productive at home and get my jewellery making going again. It will keep my hands from being idle and I can create some pieces that I can donate to a charity. I rather thought that I could give some to my C venue - I have not been paying for my C as they have assessed my work/home situation and let me off with my fees! As a 'pay back', I reckon that they could get something for my work - even if it is to sell the pieces amongst the staff and put the proceeds in to their coffers. I hope that will suffice until I can think of something else that's 'out there' to get involved with?!!