My gut told me not to do it, my head told me not to do it, but i know if i felt someone was talking or emailing about me i'd be ticked.
So i just dropped off the emails and faxes that i provided the counselors, to her.
It includes good and bad, but it has everything that i ever said about her to those cnslrs. no where in those papers does it say mlc, it only says crisis.
It also includes the bad about me, from when i looked in the mirror, even admits the emotional affair i had in '98 for a month or so, difference here is mine was a chat room thing it was a flipping log on, but i found myself looking forward to getting online every nite to chat with whoever it was.
I'm glad I've been reading and learning on this stuff,because i'm down, but i feel good.
And i told her again i loved her unconditionally and that meant she had to be happy regardless of how i felt.
I am down, but i'm not crushed,she said my worst fear and i didn't panic.
I'm here posting and hoping for the best,she really has no more dirt on me,i mean nothing,those emails and faxes to the cnslr's were the last skeleton in the closet i had with her.
and i know she's lost it and had a bad day, her new car is broken, her tire went flat she accused me of slashing it in front of the kids.
I think she said divorce for two reasons, one she wants to escape and two just to flipping try to hurt me. Cause she said ur the only one that doesn't want one, have you asked the kids and i said the kids will tell us what they think we want to hear and i dropped it, i really didn't defend,raise my voice, the only thing i asked was wait on the divorce....
