H home. Me and my damn honesty - I told him I lost my phone - shoulodnt have. Ended up finding it under my bed.

In the mean time, got a whole lecture about this is why we need to have separate accounts because they are on his account and if anything happens it's on his shoulders, he's so responsible and I'm so irresponsible, etc.

I started to defend and explain myself. Instead I just said I'm willing to have a separate account if that makes it easier for him. Then more lectures on even setting up separate accounts is a pain for him and an invasion of his precious time. I said we all have to put up with things we'd rather not from others. And I SHUT UP AND WALKED AWAY.

Should have done that sooner, but hey at least I did it. And, I found my phone.

Hopefully next time I will just not say a word.

But progress - I didn't stand their and argue (too much).

I realize what comes out as criticisms from his mouth is him stressed out and worried about the house, the phones, the cars, etc that are financially more on his back than mine.

However, then he's spending money moving into a bigger apt., spending money on lawyers, etc...those are his choices. If he's so worried about his precious time and money - no, it's just anything that has to do with me that causes him time or money that he's against.

Calm...patience...silence...walking away....detaching....breathe

Just hating feeling like I'm not the person he wants to be with. If DB says to make yourself into that person, how do I do it?


Me: 42
Him: 43

Two divorcees in a relationship