It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Feeling better today. Hopefully coming out of the tunnel again.

Thank you, ((((BM)))) and ((((sandycay)))), for being there for me last night and this morning and helping me see again that STBXH is really just a morally and emotionally bankrupt individual not worth my pain! I am so very blessed to have friends such as you!!!

And I am so very thankful for my kids. I feel guilty for allowing them to see me in such pain yesterday. I want them to see me as strong and confident, and I don't want them to be "in the middle". But they are adults now and they were both so supportive of me yesterday, especially D25. I am so glad to have a true and honest relationship with them. I want them to know that it's OK to show emotion and that it doesn't mean you're weak. They both assured me they knew this, and told me that though they both love their dad, he is "f'd up" and "not worth it".

I know that I am really so very lucky. I feel like a fool for "wasting" 28 years of my life burying my head in the sand and believing in something that wasn't real...... but to me it was real..... and STBXH will never find another like me, which is a good thing because he wouldn't appreciate her if he did and would just end up hurting her too. He's the fool.....