Leading up to last night - Thursday I cancelled our date for this weekend, and gave my W the speech about how we're not going to be friends.
Friday she was really clingy to me.
Yesterday, we went out as a family, and W said she did want to go out, so I called the babysitter.
Last night - we went to see a movie. Normal stuff. We went to dinner. I had a beer, W had a glass of wine. Had a good time. Then we decided we wanted to stay out. Had an idea of where to go, but as we were exiting the complex, I saw a friend of mine performing on the patio of a resturant - I said, hey that's Tim, we parked the car and went in.
I had another beer, W had another glass of wine, we had a great conversation, told each other all the things we like about each other, started singing along to the songs. W got a 3rd glass of wine - after a brief rain, we went back out and sat next to each other on a bench - W kissed me - so we made out. A lot. Right there in public, on the wet bench. Every so often, she said things like, this is not like you, you've never kissed me like that, why haven't you taken me out like this before, we should do this more.
Came home - I took the babysitter home, W changed into "nice" underwear - said she bought it for me a long time ago - and we ML.
Now - here's the kicker. Immediately afterwards, she viewed this as a mistake. Kept saying, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I don't want to hurt you, this doesn't feel right, I was so lonely, I was being selfish, I'm so drunk... she got into the bathtub - I got in with her - and she was completely into the "this was a mistake mode." Oh, and she's dreading telling her therapst of all things. Said I'd need to give her some space today, if she wasn't able to look me in the eye...
