Hang in there. I know you are hurting, but you will get through this.
Hey BigJohn. I read all of your post and I'm sorry that you're dealing with the things that you are.
I appreciate your time and your concern too. We have no choice but to get through it. Coach's Stockdale Principle is something that I read several times a day. Hope that it will sink in and begin to help me.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.