Are you really "all that"? You tell us the story of people talking you up all day. Then getting rejected by H. Why does this matter?
Remember.. he does not care about losing you.
.............. It's the persona he wants to loose.
He wants to loose the "little girl" part of you.
Well, that's the point, isn't it. I'm not "all that". Or at least, I haven't seen myself as "all that" for a long time - maybe never in our R. It matters that I'm rejected by H b/c well, I want H in our lives. I am trying my best to follow the "rules" and nothing seems to impact H (or at least nothing that I know). I have always had self image issues with him b/c he is a pretty unbelievably gorgeous man and I've never felt that I was physically good enough for him. On the other hand, I think he has always felt inferior to other aspects of my personality (ambition, determination, and even perhaps intelligence). Therefore, in my 180s, I'm trying to get out of the Mom mold that I've so successfully created for myself and get back to the fun, young, attractive mode that H first fell in love with. Am I succeeding? Don't know.
The real gem of it is that I need to be doing all of this for me and I can't ... I honestly can't ... everything I do is a calculated move to try and get him to re-discover me....re-discover us and I'm failing miserably and it makes me very, very sad.
Originally Posted By: Forrest Gump
Detaching.. and Moving on.. 2 different things. Focus on one or the other.
I don't know how to detach without moving on. Any insights would be greatly appreciated. I'm still so attached that I think I have confused the two. Thanks for your comments FG, much appreciated.
HIW M 35 H 37 D 5, D 2 Married 1996 Dating 1992 Met 1988 EA/PA started March 2009 Bomb 6/16/2009 Separated 6/23/2009
