It interests me greatly Cas that friends and family behave the way that they do at these times. I understand them not wanting for us to be in pain and yet they show no sensitivity toward the pain that their words and actions bring upon us.
I got an email from a friend back home this morning and it is totally wounding. It's all wrapped up in jollity and fun but the bottom line screams out at me. This friend is frustrated at why I would stay here on my own and why I would 'hang around' waiting for H. I really feel that there is still a big stigma around D - especially from my original culture.
I also consider that, if I did give in to them all and went home, I would still be alone. They all work and have their own families so what would I gain?? The novelty of having me home would also wear off really quickly, so then where would that leave me? At least here I have the sunshine and beaches, I am still near enough to H for a thaw to take place and for now, I have a job.
Of course, my precious babies are a a concern and yet there was my sister (now that you understand that one!) telling me to go off and work on a cruise liner for 6 months!! People haven't got the first idea, do they??
Looking at what you have written about your family - it appears much the same. I am certainly learning not to care and that has always been H's philosophy too. Ironic thing is, he's not been the one to face them all, so why should he care??
Oh Cas - it's just as well we have found this place and can all understand and support one another until we make our final move.
WAH 43; W 47 M 16; T 17 Cats 15 & 6 Bomb 27/05/09 ow 28/06/09
"It is only on the darkest night that we see the stars"
