UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Perish the thought Cas - I wonder why some of the men are hanging in there ... is it that they can't cut the safety net as they knew that they were on to a good thing with their W?

I fear that I may well be on that same page although the 'availability' in my case is the thing that could make things either work out or fizzle out for H. Evidently, I am hoping for the latter and the sooner the better.

I'm here - no kids, no ties, no binds - just me. H doesn't want that but in comparison he has gone for ow who lives interstate, with an unknown quantity of kids (at least two at home) and from goodness knows how many previous R's. H says that ow D her H because he was sleeping around. Uh hum - so what does the tramp do - why, she encourages my H to do the same ... so how does that work? Like an idiot, my H falls for the tricks and will now be lumbered with all her baggage - expecting me to lose my home and M to pay for it all. THIS STINKS. It is is injust and immoral.

I'm feeling like my bottle of water is slowly pouring down the plughole today. I just want to see H - it's been almost 3 weeks now and only the few emails that I got recently which has kept me going. He's definitely weaning me away from him. Meanwhile, I am here in our home and surrounded by our stuff. I wonder what his thoughts are? I think that he won't act now until after Christmas ... then I'm waiting for him to strike - big time.

I just don't know anymore how to even get him to come here and start any conversation, never mind R talk. I am just sat, waiting for him to come to me .... and I wait ... and wait ... and wait ..... When do I take some action for myself?? I was thinking of calling him to say that I will be in his neighbourhood on Wednesday evening - could we meet after work to discuss some financial matters. Is this a good or bad thing to do?? We do need to talk about stuff still, but now that I'm working it's not as crucial as it was before. I still feel that he's getting off lightly and there are some bills which he has failed to address, leaving me to pay them alone. Nevertheless, I do feel that Gucci would call my actions 'caving' and I don't want to be accused of that, so perhaps had better just let things ride along as they are at the moment??