Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Update/Journaling:
So I went home and H didn't want to talk to me. I asked if I should sleep somewhere else and he said he could or I could..he was done...I said you mean done with the marriage? and he said yes. I asked him if he was going to move out and he said he didn't see why he always(once) had to be the one to move out-maybe I should(fat chance!)...

So I'm lost-I don't understand his response. Things were good yesterday-we had marriage counseling.we had agreed to each plan one date a week and surprise each other and H was supposed to do his tomorrow...We talked about the car..I became vulnerable like our MC said to and shared my feelings with H. H didn't just listen (like we agreed) but reacted/judged and now seems to have flipped out. I guess by sharing I thought this car purchase would somehow be connected to a divorce did it? I don't know.

I journalled to H(another therapy suggestion) after our conversation fell apart about the car and right before I went to work. H's response was terse- I still have trust issues and they can't be overcome. he's tired of trying. I need to acknowledge my anger. He's been wronged too. Its not fair for me to "pin" everything on him.

Its like we had two different conversations-I'm totally baffled about what wrong I did, what I tried to "pin" him with..

I journalled back(and he said he'd read it, when he's ready) that I was sharing fears-they were't all rational, they weren't all concrete..I felt that when he left and reacted to my sharing, that was exactly my worst fear about sharing those fears...I felt confused. I asked what wrong I did, what I tried to "pin" him with..I asked him to consider staying..blah blah blah.

I'm confused and hurt and scared right now.