Hi Dusk, You sound so much better! Well for what's it worth here's my 2 cents - no, I don't think you should edit yourself because H might look at what you write! If it upsets him he shouldn't upload it. You sound like you've answered your own question, you are not going to stop writing music. If there's something you write that is about him or you don't want him to access, it there another way to record/get it critiqued than putting it online? I don't know much about how you do this so I'm not sure what you can do instead. But think about how important it is to YOU that he not read/hear it. You want to take care of yourself. If it's really upsetting you, is there an alternative to posting it online? Just a thought. Hope you keep doing well, & stay strong. LFA
