After 30 Years!

[Lost Rabbit]

Cas and Nell you have hit the nail on the head, the thing I sense most from him is that he has not had control for a long time possibly never in his eyes, and he likes having some control as much as I like being the new woman.. We have to come to some point where he feels comfortable relinquishing his control some of the time, not all of the time because I believe he needs to be more in charge of his own destiny and so do I!

I know that whilst we are having an "affair" so to speak and our R is moving forward either in honesty or perhaps renewing how we feel about each other I feel happy not considering it "cake eating". He isnt always running away any more, I mentioned that it would be nice to have a weekend away together and he agreed! When I teased him about looking sheepish, he said it was a positive thing he was at least going off to do his own thing not running away from me.. like I said there are so many little steps, like me asking if he wanted to be put on the electoral register, adding no point if you are never going to live with me again, he never said no, just said he hadnt put his name on the one he'd received at his place! He is giving me baby steps but is still to ready to run backwards if threatened!

He is coming up on wednesday and although Im open to having some fun, Im not going to instigate it at all, there are also some household things that need doing so we will see if being with Rabbit doing chores holds the same alure! Its hard because I totally understand where he is coming from, but at the same time Im hackering after roses, chocolates and romance! Will have to see where this goes over those next few days, if he is incapable of giving me something towards an ILY well then I think Im just going to have to be busy "washing my hair" and finding more suitable GAL activities, till he realises this victoria sponge isnt for eating! Yes I am doing the pursuing(reeling in) at the moment but I do want to be pursued too, and certainly do not want to be the "safe bet" Mr Rabbit isnt stupid he knows exactly what Im up to and Im sure he will also realise that Im not going to accept being taken for granted either, its just a case of how do we get from A to B with both of us fufilling the criteria we have set. But then no one said it would be easy lol!

I certainly would value some Gucci input after H goes back next week, bearing in mind that its some sort of effort into the R side of things I am looking for, and if there is none then I reckon its Gucci time!