DB, Yeah, I know, control me, such a bad way to monitor results, but I did learn something.
Sue, haven't thought about switching churches, the kids are so happy in Sunday School, I don't know what it would be like to have a pastor I feel comfortable talking with, maybe that is something I should try.
Hi Pam and Opt, thanks for checking in. S4 is sick, so don't know what fun we will do, but probably watch tons of junk tv and read.
Last night H booked tickets for the boys and I to go to Germany to see my sister. We fly out Christmas night, so the four of us will spend Christmas together. I thought the prices were way too high, but he said this is his gift to us, that Christmas will be hard on all or us and it will be good for a change in locale.
This morning, I told S7 that we have tickets for Germany. He asked how many tickets (getting smart about this), I said 3. He said, but there are four people in our family, who isn't going? I told him Daddy. He hit the chair, clenched his fists and his jaw got tight (just like H) and said I want you to stay home and Dad to come with us. When he saw the hurt look on my face, he said, what? I'm just being honest.
This breaks my heart, the four in our family bit, I get angry and hurt when he says these things about wanting H and not me, I don't take it out on him, of course, I understand, but inside I just feel like shriveling up. I finally regain my equilibrium, but something like this just throws it for a loop.
