Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

Thanks guys. Something just hit me yesterday after we hugged and snuggled.

After my last post she came and founf me in the bedroom. She said something about me being distant and stood there quiet. She told me she was sorry. Sorry she didn't address things in our marriage in an effort to avoid the conflict too. I thanked her and told her I am sorry for my role as well, but pointed out that I think we have gotten a lot etter at communicating with eachother. She agreed and said there's still a long way to go (I'll try not to read too much into that).

I asked S about the movie. I think that W and I were more excited aout it than him so I did end up bailing out.

I've been at my G'ma's house working on it for the past couple of hours. (she's been moved to my Dad's house and she was a hoarder...the house is an unbelievable mess). It's a good place to get away.

Gima...you're right. I have been trying to mindread. She seems like she is hurting so much. I know I can't fix it, but I sure wish I could. She doesn't come off as angry any more. Just distant and sad. She just says she can't explain it. she wants to het to know the real her and follow her own path kind of stuf. She said she feels so guilty and still loves me.

Ì will get through the day but I'm kind of a mess right now. Somehow I find myself back at the stage where I want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep.