Exactly. My values are family and character and connection first.
However, I am not even divorced and I do not want to intertwine with another in a way that clouds my feelings and experience of dissolving my marriage.
When I am divorced and "done" completely, I will open my heart to the kind of man I could consider spending my life with at most and at least even potentially having my children around...that's a while away for me. I am thrilled that I am not in the position H is in. If I was in love with another, it would never feel clean or clear. He must live with that.
So, ironically, I am attracted to creative, impulsive, busy guys who wont require much of me. But, they tend to want sex rapido...and I really don't want to be intimate with risky guys (risky physically and emotionally)...what to do?
I'm supposed to hang out with the adorable comedian guy tomorrow night...and since we aren't in it to find mates, what do you think he's in it for?
I have to find the right balance. Plus, worse thing is, I'm kind of on fire here and doubt I'll find it easy to control myself.
I can say this is a welcome distraction from thinking about the massive betrayal and heartbreak I have experienced (I think I've spent enough time tearing my guts out over that)...
Sorry for the hijack. But grateful for the conversation.
