Berto & Steve -- thanks for your anger. Kind of odd, but it is nice that people get angry for me! Maybe someday H will realize the absurdity of his words and actions, but can't pin my hopes on that. And Berto, as far as teams tanking, do you know how hard it is to be a Penn State fan this year? And with all the hoopla now surrounding JoePa saying he is going to coach forever?
Sue, the bible study isn't at my church and I talked to my pastor at the beginning of this mess and it was horrible, I hated it. We have another pastor, I could talk to, but not quite comfortable in that. I am careful in giving details, I'm finding that already. There are only a very few people who know the ins and outs (other than the entire internet world!).
Pam & Opt, the boys and I, that is where I need to concentrate. Somedays easier than others!
Sunday: We drop the boys off at Sunday School and then go to the bookstore. We are talking there a bit and I ask him if he would prefer I didn't initate sex. He said yes, that for him to do "it" he needs to be emotionally involved, he feels guilty if it is just to have fun.
We come home and the phone rings, H answers and I walk by and I can hear my sister's voice. This is the first they have talked. To me it sounds like a howler (Harry Potter reference), but she insists it was a conversation and there was an exchange of ideas. I can see in his face and controlled manner that he is furious. She starts going in on holidays, that he has no rights because he is walking out on the kids, that he should leave immediately, that the pain is too much for me and I'm too nice to kick him out, that she thinks he is having an affair, ea or pa, and that he should be honest with me, the shout from the rooftop love only comes at the beginning of Rs, and that he has no right to limit who I tell and do not tell. Finally I get the phone, and then H is in the background angrily shouting, "and does she want to tell the kids, too!" My sis had finally had enough and let loose. My BIL said she wasn't angry enough.
Later, while she and I are talking, H comes and signs that he is sorry. After I'm off he goes off for the afternoon and hikes and thinks. He is very angry with her, said that he couldn't believe after all the help we have given her in the past years that she would not be supportive of him.
We talked a bit, he said he guess he had it coming, but he is very, very angry at her. Good thing she lives in Germany! They were negotiating when I get the kids at Christmas and that the kids and I should be able to go visit her then.
I think it made him think, though did not change his mind. He did say I was a saint through all this. I told him I am able to make up my own mind and that he may stay here until the townhome is ready.
Yesterday, he talked to the one other person at work who wife knows. That had lunch and the guy told H, whatever I can do to help and maybe you shouldn't work so much! So H came home early, surprised me, and found me on the BB--which I quickly shut down and made him angry, hiding things! I can't win!
