Then (a) you have a clean conscience and (b) regardless of what happens, YOU have succeded.
I have a clean conscience about trying to save the marriage. But I feel the regret and remorse, very heavily, about my behavior that lead up to her leaving. I can't stop thinking about these things. It all came back, all those bad emotions, when she told me she was/had filed for divorce. I felt strong as an ox on Sept. 30 and for months before that...and on Oct. 1 when she told me she was/did file for divorce, it slammed me so hard that I now feel like I did shortly after she left! I feel like I'm alone in the world, and my core value has plummeted. My self-worth and self-esteem are non-existant. Now, we're goiNg to have to go through those awful legal proceedings that will bring a finality to the situation. She has even encouraged my to 'move on' and find someone else and "learn from your experiences and don't make the same mistakes"! I don't feel like much of a 'success' right now.
ps - Thank You givingitmyall for being here and responding. I'm hurting a lot right now.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
