It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

I considered the negatives list idea as well. I did write a few letters to her (as a journaling exercise, never for her to see) that went into detail about her role in the breakup. Got a lot out that I hadn't considered in feeling bad about what I had done wrong. But I let those ideas spin around in my mind too much and got very negative.

After listening to the Light her Fire audio I wrote a love letter (not to be sent). That cleared my head of a lot of stuff. Kind of in the spirit of "as if," so that my head is in the right place. Focus on the R I want to have w/ her.

She's talking to me and that's a good thing. I want to move our interactions to a flirty, intimate level (not sexual necessarily). This was something I hadn't done since we were dating and I want her to think of me in that way again. That's a 180. No love talk.

She said on the last big talk that she wants those things. She didn't state she wanted them from me. Since the lines of communication are actually open and she is telling me these things I think she's unconsciously giving me hints. Why else bring them up?

So, I'm not rushing things but not holding back.