Hope and heartache

[ClingingToHope]

Girls called me while I was working at a high school football game. It was nice to talk to them. I'm picking them up tomorrow for the weekend.

Just knowing they were home with the W also gave me peace. I still haven't kicked the "worrying about where she is" habit on the weekends. I think when I truly don't care what she's doing I'll have detached.

I saw a person from our old church at the game. She used to be the Sunday school teacher for our D7. She asked about the kids. I filled her in and asked about her son. He's slightly autistic and I was the only Sunday school teacher he would interact with. It was really my triumphant moment as a Sunday school teacher. I spent most of the rest of the time playing Crazy 8s with the kids with religious themed cards.

She asked how "we" are doing at our new church and that's when I filled her in on what's going on.

After, I wondered if I should have done that. My W does have some friends still at that church, or at least people she wouldn't want knowing about our situation.

But I don't want to pretend everything is all roses -- especially when every vibe I get from W is that we are heading toward a D with no chance of reconciling.