UPSIDE DOWN - still struggling, trying to detach

[Eskimo Nell]

Thanks Cas - truth be known, I don't want to do anything - other than to wait out H and be here for him when his fog lifts. Trouble is - and the down side meanwhile - is that I am existing and not having a life, right?

I have heard your story, JCJ's and others - then I ask myself, just how long do you wait? Success, it appears, comes to very few who are here and often those who are starting from a much better standing than I am. I don't want to go home - my knee-jerk in June showed me that but then what am I doing in a country all on my own, either? I've been here for four years and not made any friends - is this what the next four years holds for me too??

I wish that I could make some decisions but right now it's about all I can manage to decide whether I want ketchup or sauce!