I don't know how I would get through the day without the boost of common sense I get here.
Opt, I like the idea of treating him like an acquaintance. just someone who is sharing a house at the moment. My friend called yesterday and told me to ignore everything she says. She said she is just so angry about it all that she is venting to me! I guess I need to DB with my friends, understand where they are coming from. I think for her it is almost fear, if it could happen to Jackie, it could happen to me. My ordeal seems to be prompting conversations between my married friends. Saving marriages all over the place.
KAW, you are right, this is an opportunity to find out what I want out of life, what I'm all about now. I've been defining myself through the eyes of other people, what does H want from a wife, mother, how to behave as a good daughter in law. Now it is time to discover what I'm all about without the interference of others. Just me and the kids.
DB, Yeah, you are right, it is going to suck no matter what. I don't know how you did it for so long. I started to get my mood under control by last night and was pleasant and upbeat when he came home. I didn't cook or clean, just don't feel like doing it, but was in an okay mood. I think that confused him. How can I be happy when he'll be gone soon. He is having an awfully good time going through catalogs and picking out things for his new home. I told him he could have the dishes. He said I could, but I insisted he take them. I want new ones! He does too, but I don't know why he should get all the new stuff.
Berto, you are the tough love guy around here! I love the idea of a party. He is moving on a Wednesday, so I don't know how that would go, but I think that first Saturday night I am going to have a girls only party. Make the house my own. He already has said he wants the boys that weekend for a trip of just the three of them. Want to come cater? And I was pleased to be able to do something to help out the effort at the beach, after you did so much to prepare the meal, it was the least I could do. H doesn't like how I clean, I don't do it well enough.
Pam, I am trying so hard not to be bitter or angry. That is not the person I want to be. But, I also have to learn not to cater to him, as I am guilty of that one.
We had wine last night and watched surivor together (our 1 hour of tv togetherness a week) The wine made me seduce him and that confused him, he couldn't understand why I would do that when in a few weeks he would be gone, I thought that was a good reason to do it. He seemed to enjoy himself. I think that confused him to no end.
