Yes, I could tell the PC quite a lot. I wonder if it would have any impact. I'm thinking not likely. I am supposed to schedule a first meeting with the PC -- he wanted each parent to meet with him one-on-one to get their stories -- but he hasn't returned my calls yet to set up a session. Not very encouraging.
I got my S's back this evening. I can't help but noticing how spoiled they have been this week with their mother on vacation. They still want to be entertained and fed like they're guests at a resort or something. S8 gained another four pounds, or so he says -- there's waaaay too much fat in the diet she's been feeding him, even when not on holiday. It's not healthy for him, and makes me think she's trying to turn him into a mini-me of the OM.
At least he's eating though, right?
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It struck me earlier this evening -- I think I would be so much further along if xW had not lied to me so much and tried to ruin my reputation. If she had simply not made me out to be the total fall guy for our M ending like it did, not pinned the blame all on me, or had tried to take away my children, I am certain I would not feel nearly so injured. It wasn't enough to take her love away, but she had to also take me for everything she could get and then try to destroy me.
What is it in these people, these WAS, that causes them to turn like that?
I know I need to put these questions and thoughts aside, stop looking back like Lot's wife did, and chalk it up to things we will never really understand -- and keep moving forward. But looking at the faces of my sleeping children I wonder if there's some clue, some knowledge I might glean from this tragedy in my life that they might avoid such pitfalls themselves. Must the cycle be repeated, can it never end? How?
