Who is this person?

[Day by Day]

I'm starting to worry about the joint session with H coming up next wk. He hasn't said one word about wanting to work on the M. What will we talk about in the session then? I remember feeling this way the last time we had a joint session. He pushed D the last time.

We left it without even looking at each other or saying goodbye. It just hurt. I feel like cancelling. What's the point in going? I don't even know what I'll say. I'm going to have to search for advice on what others have done in their counseling. I feel much more detached than last time and much calmer. I just hate the idea of a repeat of last time of him telling me he wants a D and that he's happy with things the way they are. What do I respond to that? I had said that things were fine in my life with the separation too.

Ugh. I was just saying I was doing fine as a way to show I'm GAL. Was that wrong? I know that I'm looking like I'm fine now because lots of my friends/acquaintances say I look great and happy. So my appearance tells it for me.

Any advice on how to act/what to say in the joint session?