I am so proud of you for going on the making it through the Disney trip! It is so hard having to go thru first time experiences w/o H. But once you do it, you realize that you can. It makes it easier to detach and survive the endurance test in limboland.
I think maybe Grislen has a good idea. You have always been the perfect W, juggling a million things, making everything work out just right and taking care of everything. Maybe you need to let H take care of himself and make his own decisions. Maybe he will miss you more if he finds out what it is like to really be on his own.
Maybe you need to set some goals for yourself about how to act towards H while he is in the house. Perhaps courteous - but not happy. Maybe prepare meals for the family - but do not coordinate to make sure that the family necessarily waits for him if he is late coming home from work. Maybe let him do his own laundry. Perhaps even arrange to go out with friends one evening and have him watch the kids. I think you need some goals for yourself and what you need for you and your PMA so your life is not so H centered.
I am just brainstorming... Does anyone else have any ideas?
