Just a little update for myself. A got a medical bill last night for my visit the begining of last month to get my meds. So I asked her if she had taken me off her insurance. (it was cheaper with her then my work place to have the family plan.) She said she didn't. I then asked its wired because I got a bill. She then said "oh the insurance company sends me a check to pay for it. I didn't know what it was for so I cashed it." wtf? I then asked her that I need her to take that amount out so I can pay for it. She gets mad for some reason and says "fine, when are you canceling the phone line?"

Mind you this was all through text. I didn't respond back to her right away as I was on the phone with a customer. She then text back "oh so now u ignore my question?"

m:I'm on the phone with customer please wait for a sec

w:sure

5 mins later

M: U know I do work also. When it comes with the line I have to wait till I have more funds. Its $175 to cancel the line.

w:yea but you can make payments I talk to (our friend) already

I didn't respond back. I'm starting to see this pattern that we have got going here since the separation. This back and fourth arguments and getting points from one another. Retailation and what not. I'm really feeling like I'm starting to let go or detach. The pain in the chest is not there anymore and I feel more like a really heavy load is off my shoulders. There are times when I do start feeling like maybe if I try just one more time to begg it might get through to her but I remember hearing and reading from everything about it not working. Or the urge is not as strong anymore. I'll think about it and just brush it off. This must be the feeling of detachment? I hope I'm going in the right direction. I know I had set some unrealistic goals at first. I wanted things to work out before November. Now I know its going to take a lot more time and paitence to fix this.


Me:27
W:24
S:2
D:9 months
M:3 years
Together for 8 years
Bombed : 6/11/09
Moved out: 6/27/09
Found out about her affair 9/7/09
(she started her's at 6/25/09)
Begged n plead 7/25/09
started DB 8/17/09