What if he did ask for a divorce tomorrow? What would you do? How would your future be? Picture the worst case scenario and prepare for it. That is where the GAL'ing and 180's come into play. If you prepare for the worst, you know you will be okay. You will survive. You must survive, if not for you then for your children. Be strong. After realizing that you will actually be okay, then you can focus on you and start to detach from H.
Yes, I'll survive....but it won't be the same reality and it won't be the same future for my darling daughters.
I do know that you are right and I keep trying to detach. However, the more I detach, the more I want to make it end and file for D and move on with my life. I have certainly learned one thing over the last few weeks. I won't be alone unless I want to be alone. Nevertheless, the sadness is still there. Out of my control so...I'll try and continue to GAL and survive.
Hmmm. I'll think more about family time. I did mention that H should come over to take D5 out on her bike and he pretty much blew me off.
HIW M 35 H 37 D 5, D 2 Married 1996 Dating 1992 Met 1988 EA/PA started March 2009 Bomb 6/16/2009 Separated 6/23/2009
