Dreams of a New Normal...

[ClingingToHope]

I feel like sh*t. I was H's wife, the mother of my kids and basically the matriarch of my family...and now, I am...flailing.

How am I back at what is being taken from me?

You are at the bottom of the roller coaster right now. I was there Wednesday night for some weird reason and unfortunately I think that'll hit me again this weekend.

I was the king of a cool family in a great neighborhood. Money was good. Kids are healthy. Retirement is on track. The future laid in front of us. We just had to walk it together.

Now, I'm thinking about how to handle Thanksgiving and Christmas alone. What it will be like to sit apart when our daughters graduate high school.

One thing that's helped a little when that emotional pain hits is to look at how far you've already come.

Easier said than done.

And remember that at some point the WAW will have to take a hard look at himself/herself. The stats on D aren't good. No one wins and your WAS will have pain.