I'm glad to know you are writing again. It is so good for you to be back doing something you love. Writing will help you again, even if the market isn't great for your profession.
The key is in finding yourself again...that's what I'm discovering too, my friend. Doing things for you. Taking care of you and building yourself up to become better and better.
Again, I'm so pleased to see you writing. Keep it up!
On the other hand, it is also great that you can interact w/your son frequently via the internet. I love how he feels like he's "spending time w/you" when you do interact on-line, so that is an excellent way for you two to help spend time "together" while you are apart.
Ok, as for the journaling of your past and how it feels like a tsunami. It is overwhelming at times. I understand exactly what you mean. I also found it to be a bit frustrating b/c I saw how much time I wasted and how much energy was spent on things that were out of my control. It was very disappointing to see, but also very informative too.
Doing it has been difficult and tiring, but it has also been one of the keys that has allowed me to grow, mature, and change for the betterment of myself and all those I love.