It's been many months since I've felt like this. I am heartbroken and so sad...and all the other emotions are flooding in...grief, deep remorse, sorrow, guilt, etc. I'm cryin'...and it's been a long time since I've done that. I did not want this to happen, and I've done everything in my power to keep it from happening.
Feel all of it, don't hold it in. It's normal, healthy and expected. Your fight for your marriage isn't over, your growth isn't finished, your kids still love you and there are still new roads to ride. Strength and Honor.
When I was feeling really low, I would take my fingers and tap my heart and say, "I can handle it." You have been on a incredible journey, stay fueled up. Cheers
I'm feelin' it, and I'm not holdin' anything in Coach. I can't help it right now. I hear ya', but it's hard to comprehend that the fight for my marriage isn't over. Sure feels like it, especially under the circumstances. I do know that my growth isn't finished. Yeah, my kids are special to me...but they are adversely affected by this mess also. I'm still ridin'...not as hard right now though.
The negative emotions that I feel, like remorse and regret and disappointment, are eating me up right now. I feel overwhelming sadness. I'll try tapping my heart and saying "I can handle it" when I feel really low. It has been a journey full of pain and regret. I'm tryin'.
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.
