I would like to think that everything you are feeling is absolutely normal because that is exactly how I have felt the past 18 months with my W. What you typed is almost verbatim to how I have felt and the process I have gone through. I believe it is similiar because the common variable is that we both simply wanted our marriages and the life that we had chosen to survive. It's hard to let that go, no matter how much of a dumba** our spouse is being.

S4H