WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 11

[confusedinpa]

Just more journaling. Not much to report on the relationship front for the last 2 days.

On Weds, I had a work thing that was late so I asked her if I could talk to the boys at 5:30 instead. She said ok, but when I called, she said she was on the phone with her mom and was on the way to pick up our 7 year old (the 3 year old was in the car already). I got the sense she wasn't going to hang up on her mom so I just said I would call the boys and leave a message for them on her apt phone. I did and told the boys they could try and call me and leave a message as well.

They did, but I must not have had reception when they called as it never rang. I did get the message though.

I called them Thurs morning (I sent her a text to make sure it was ok) and we talked. The boys were really excited about it being Thurs as they will see me on Friday.

I called them Thurs nite as well. They were tired so we didn't talk very much. They did do a cheer for it being Thurs and they were coming home.

She got on the phone and asked about my shingles. Then she started to chit chat. I was out with my friend for dinner so I didn't really feel like hearing her chit chat so after a few minutes I just said have a good nite and hung up.

I had thought about letting her chit chat to see if she will bring up the dinner thing I tossed out there for our anniversary but it really feels like she hasn't made any changes from a communication front. She still goes on round about tangents and stays very subtle where I feel like I need to guess all the time.

So I will see my boys in about 5 hours! Yeah!