Get that emotion out by yourself - away from the boys and, obviously away from W. Don't fight it, just let it go. Then, get back with the program. And you will probably have to do this a few times, and that's OK.
This is where you have to put your focus on (1) the boys and (2) yourself. You have to stop worrying about what SHE daoes/doesn't do, says/doesn't say, thinks/doesn't think. These are all based on making her the focus, which will not help you.
GAL'ing is HUGE right now. Staying busy will help you keep your mind occupied in a positive way. It's when you are idle and have nothing else to focus on that the bad thoughts will creep in. Pray, a LOT. It WILL help.
And have faith - God has a plan in all of this. And, I don't think he is leading you down a path to end up being unhappy in the end. Whether M works out or not, I have faith he is leading you (and me) down paths to happiness like we have never known. If you have faith in that (and I truly believe that) then as painful as things are right now, there is light at the end of the tunnel. We just have to find the strength to make that first step on the journey out of that tunnel.
You can do this. You have a lot of folks pulling for you.
