smile I am doing a little better emotionally. Actually got some sleep last night .yay!

Ok, here's my new problem......

A couple of the songs I uploaded for critique were based on my feelings and thought s of what I have been going thru. Do I feel the same way now? Sometimes, but the point is, Im a musician/song writer and I write what I feel and experience. My H has been checking my songs out I guess, and he is , according to a mutual friend, upset and thinks I now hate him. I know what song he listened to and yea more than one person beleives it is about a person not an action. I dont feel the need to explain myself nor do I think it would matter. Like Ive said b4, interpretation is personal. My biggest concern is how this will affect progress in my sitch with my H. I cant stop him from listening to my music, and Im sure as hell not going to stop writing. I know im not supposed to talk to HIM about my feelings or pursue and lately Ive been doing very well and not contacting him at all, nor am I looking at his profile. AM I supposed to not work and create music? Just so he doesn't get upset? I think that's bullshyt. I had one suggestion to only write happy music. Well , here's a news flash, I WASNT happy when I wrote the song. I fully intend to record it on my next demo. Its a good song!!!

SO , here's my question..... do i ignore this and go about my business like I normally would? I don't worry about how ppl interpret my music. normally. I really feel like this isnt my problem, I wouldnt care if it was someone else. Im just not wanting to lose any ground with my H. I didnt ask him to check it out or listen to it, and he is obviously not going to ask me about it. Not right now anyway. If this pushed him away, that bothers me, but I cant do anything about it. Im truly afraid that if I put any kind of explaination up on the meaning of the lyrics , that it will do more damage. The action was still by HIM. /sigh Im not upset over this, Im not crying, Im perplexed. Any input will be helpful.

Wow, i just had another inspiration about being nothing but a statistic. ... off to the keyboard i go....

Dusk