I see what you're saying. I think that is what I call the "ego" trying to get you off track. I've been pulled down that path quite a few times already in the past few months but luckily have turned to either friends, books, or internet support to make sure I explore those feelings without taking it out on H. Also I keep reminding myself that life isn't fair and I'll be constantly unhappy if I don't accept that. Do I want to be right or do I want to be happy? I wanted to be right for a long time...now I want to be happy instead. I've learned that sometimes people can have completely different views of something but they can both be right...
