Uh, is it bad that I want to take H's money, buy myself some lingerie, let someone rip it off of me, f*ck the sh*t out of that someone and send a video of it to H??
It went interesting. After he did us the enormous favor of missing a concert (yes this was reiterated multiple times)...after the boring as heck school event, as I prepared to hustle tired youngens home to sleep...H started talking about dinner and where he was gonna go (ooo...daddy, we want to go too, we're starving etc.). So big bad mean mommy decides to oblige and we all hop in H's car to go to dinner (note to self, what the f*ck are you doing?????).
Unfortunately, on the forefront of my mind is a purchase that I saw made by H that, while I can't explain here, clearly screamed (bought this for GF)...but, who knows? May be a coincidence (maybe something he bought for research for a project or something). So, I, being not of sound mind, start inquiring about H's work, you sure there's no other projects?? Kids are with us (I NEVER normally do this kind of nutty stuff)...trying to be covert, thinking for some pathetic reason, no, that's not how he spends his time, searching for things with her name on it...for what? Finally at dinner, you sure you're not doing a ***** ***** project? Lightbulb. He's caught. I can see it. Self-inflicted wound. S7 asks me why I "hate" daddy...yikes.
I must admit in some sick way, I relished in him surrounded by his kids and myself having to stew in it. Mind you, they had NO idea what we were talking about, just that there was tension and weirdness.
So, after dinner, he texted me that he felt caught especially with the kids there and that I didn't violate anything.
And I admitted that I showed a lack of restraint and I shouldn't have come to dinner with that on my mind.
Somehow I thought it wasn't what I thought it was but there it is...he's got quite the romance going with her and it involves special gifts and even apparently a neat project he's making for her...well from what I could gather in code.
My big issue was that it appeared he bought one of the items on the day he was sending me "i feel so bad texts" and "I'm so confused"...seems I was wrong on the dates and he was very preoccupied with pointing that out.
Anyway, I want to run run run away...
cute comedic genius texted me today. I'll tell you, I want it, but it seems the dating thing may just be a whole other world of hurt.
