For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

ha...yes, fun Courtney wants to come and play! She's been gone far too long. : )

But, it wasn't fun Courtney who was here tonight. I was in a bad mood I and even snapped at H a couple of times. All I can do is try harder next time. I don't know what it was - maybe just anger at the whole situation. I just can't believe this is how things are.

I'm not trying to be a whiner. I'm just so frustrated and fed up. It makes me sick that he thinks he can just pop in, play with D, be here for a few hrs and act like he's man of the year. By his attitude, I don't think he cares one single bit about how bad he's hurt us. And I don't think he cares that I've stopped contacting him. At this point, he cares about one person - himself and it's sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm riding an emotional roller coaster tonight - so watch out! This coaster is flying. lol. I'm just upset, sad, hurt, confused, pissed and a variety of other feelings.

Okay...deep breath...I'm just having a moment, but it won't keep me down. I'm keeping my chin up, pushing past the pain that I'm feeling right now and will not let him ruin the rest of my night.