I know it would probably be impossible to go dark living in the same house, but I think I'm going to try going dim. I don't know what else to do. I need to detach from this craziness.
I left the light on for H when I went to bed last night. I woke up about 1:30 during the night, and noticed the light was still on, and he was not home. After deciding to turn it off, I did a quick check of his bathroom. His toothbrush wasn't in the holder. Evidently he wasn't planning on coming home when he left for work yesterday morning. I tried to rationalize it by thinking maybe he went to a seminar for work out of town. Not to be. He was already home when I got home today. I've gone crazy trying to analyze it. I even broke down at work today.
If it weren't for the STRENGTH GOD has given me, I think I would have had a meltdown a long time ago.
