New here, this is my story...

[ClingingToHope]

I didn't have your problems, but I'd wager online porn was a major thing that pushed my W past the breaking point.

Sandi asked if you go to church. I did the same thing as you. I joined AFTER the bomb was dropped. I've been going to a marriage rebuilders class and learned how disrespectful I've been of my W and women in general when it comes to S.

I can see now why the physical relationship ended in our M. When things started going south, I turned to the web. I justified it in my mind as a way to keep from cheating.

But she found out and she didn't say much. She didn't rant or rave. I think she did blame herself a bit. But I pledged to Love, Honor and Obey and that definitely didn't honor her.

Against the DB rules, I wrote her five letters after each marriage class and in one of them I apologized for the web addiction and told her how I realize it's the same as cheating.

I can only hope she can forgive that and everything else although I'm struggling with being in limboland as long as some people on this site. I've read people who are still waiting for the WAS to come back three years later.

For now, keep going to church, the messages help beat back the demons, believe me. Avoid even racy TV.