It's too hard sometimes

[TooLateForMe]

It's getting to me. I'm in a cool, unemotional place. I wanted to feel good about that conversation but along with the stuff I mentioned were negative things. She told me all the things I did to help her feel good were useless because she did them only so I could be proud of her. Even if we never got back together I was always proud I got her to believe she could go to college. But she's taking that away from me and turning me into a bad guy for helping her. That is wrong and mean and if I tell her that I'm the one who's a jerk.

She's devaluing all I did for her, rewriting the past. The only reason to do that is to take away from any positive things I did. I have to be the monster or she's got to take responsibility for her own issues. She pretends to but places the blame on me. I can't do anything if not only the bad things I did are bad but the good ones as well. I hope I'm wrong. Maybe I just started focusing on the negative but how do I get over the walls if she keeps building them. I don't know if I can. What do I do if she remakes the past to make me a bigger villain?