I am relating to your confusion, frustration, and loneliness. I've been out a couple of months longer, and we also have legal action in progress. It is a slow torturous process. Every interaction w/ her is painful.
And I also struggle with this fantasy of my WAW coming to her senses or hearing some inspiring love story or something and calling me or showing up at my job or house to say......... And every time my phone rings or I get a text or a voice mail, I automatically fantasize that its her. Guess what, I am let down every time. Boo.
Only answer I can see is to Dbing like crazy and hope for the best. Best to you.
M: 25 1/2 yrs Petition Filed: Dec 08 (by WAW) served: Jan 3, 09 Separated: 3/18/09 M: 49 W: 51 D 22 S's 14 & 16 Me: devastated & broken; W: hard and bitter