Ups and Downs

[Energizer Bunny]

I'm not sure that I handled last night completely "appropriately" whatever that means. There was a hug before bed.

It's so weird. She weems like she doesn't want to go, but is going to go through with it because she doesn't want to feel like she was talked out of it or backed out or whatever.

I'm planning on getting home later tonight again. I'm not seeing as much of my S lately because of the amount of time I'm spending out. I'm sure to tuck him in as much as possible though. I guess that I'm trying to get used to not being with him whenever I want. That's the way it will be after she leaves.

Strange. She says she loves me. She said she'll miss me when she's gone. She even said she can't imagine being with anyone else (that what she says now). Then she says she needs to do this, but can't really explain why.

It's like I'm in the twilight zone. I still feel bad for her. I still wish I could fix it. I still see "my" wife pop her head out every once in a while.