Wow, did I have a tough night last night. I had my daughters and my W was off who knows where. She wasn't working.
I couldn't stop imagining the worst. Why do I care? It's as if I'm only going to be happy if she's home miserable.
I have days I'm doing great and days I'm just out of my mind with loneliness. Last night was like that and I had my girls there.
I couldn't help feeling how unfair it is that I have to wait patiently for her to make up her mind. I resolved at one point to say in January, when my lease is up, either we commit to working on the M or I file for divorce.
Maybe she'll beat me to it and file Jan. 2. I know limboland was really difficult last night.
I'm feeling better this morning, but that's because W is at work. When does the emotional attachment and sense of rejection go away?
Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11 http://tinyurl.com/yk4e2tz http://tiny.cc/thread2 http://tinyurl.com/ydtphqu http://tinyurl.com/thread4 http://tinyurl.com/3sm78k6 http://tinyurl.com/thread6
