Still in the tunnel with hubby

[kjensen]

Thanks for the support Peace.
I feel, looking back there were things I would have done differently. I wouldn't have let H move back in after the OW dumped him, until he was ready to make a commitment to me.

He has said and even last night said again, that he feels trapped. He can't afford to support himself, so even if he wanted to move out he feels he couldn't. I can't tell if this feeling of his is part of his depression or MLC, or reality..The fact that he feels this way may be part of the MLC, but it feels like crap to me-he's here with me, we're in marriage counseling, we're ML nightly and yet he feels trapped...like if he could he wouldn't be with me.

So..not sure what's next. Not sure if I just need to bide my time and be patient and DB and hope H comes through MLC soon...or are my worst fears (that its not MLC and really, this marriage shouldn't continue) true? I'm so far into this tunnel with H I can't seem to remember there might be a light at the end. Its my hope that there's a light, but my fear is we'll remain in the dark. stuck. Sorry I'm venting..I'm just not feeling hopeful at this moment.