How did I get here?

[wanttobebetter]

I am at work. It is good and bad. I'm preparing for a trial that starts Nov 2nd (I'm in LE, not an attorney!) and it is huge...over 83K pages of evidence. It is a mind numbing task in itself...let alone with everything else going on. My promise to myself was that if I can make it through everything I am dealing with right now I can do anything. I will make it.

I'm holding up as well as to be expected. I am sad but at least I know that is happening instead of when is it going to happen...if that makes any sense.

I hope she has a revelation one day. Either way, I am making myself a better person and moving on. Today is the first day or real detachment so help me stay on track with that. Thanks EB.