So I was really happy after my conversation with W yesterday. Not because of more hope, well maybe, but more because there was a human connection with her and that made me feel good. I had a big smile on my face that evening.
D9 called to ask me a question. Ds have been wanting new pets. W finally agreed last evening under the condition that the pets can stay at my place over the weekend. I said yes and my heart once again sunk as I knew this probably meant another weekend away with OM same as weekend before last I told myself that I didn't know what she was doing...could be going away with her parents, getting engaged to him or planning a weekend to end the relationship. No way to know. So I convinced myself that I wasn't going to let it bother me. That I was going to put my time in, do the best that I can and let the chips fall where they will. Went out had some beers with a friend and felt better. Still feel sad but not as bad as the previous time and twice as good as the time before that.
AKA: "Ben the school teacher" --- Me:45, W:41 | Ds:10,12&14 | M:18, T:20 Me: MLC+PA+WAS+Separated 10/08 My Request to Reconcile Denied 7/09 W w/OM 6/09-11/09
I told myself that I didn't know what she was doing...could be going away with her parents, getting engaged to him or planning a weekend to end the relationship. No way to know. So I convinced myself that I wasn't going to let it bother me. That I was going to put my time in, do the best that I can and let the chips fall where they will. Went out had some beers with a friend and felt better. Still feel sad but not as bad as the previous time and twice as good as the time before that.
