DID XH M OW or not??

[peacetoday]

Hi friends
XH is coming to wok sober since our run in last week
I think he knew I was seriuos and I did seek legal help which is in order momentarily egarding the business
so for now xh is normal
working hard
visiting kids somewhat more consistantly
not talking to me..but that is ok
I guess im the mean mommy who told him he will lose his job if he comes in high

So seeing him normal seems weird and evokes this strange feelings in me again
like what happened to him
How could he just leave without trying
he gave up everything and seems ok with it
I wonder if his NOT talking to me ties in with his guilt
Does he realize yet all the pain he has caused
or is this normal looking xh just peeking out again of the fog???
and for his new wife??
I am in a new R too
I like this man --I felt all the same strong attraction and intoxxxxication all these was feel
BUT
I would not leave my family for this man
so I dont really get it
Is it b/c im rational not in crises
I still feel the anger toward xh for all the pain he has caused me and kids
especially by M his OW
how low to M a person who cheated with you on your family
a person his mother and her family said seems weird
YET
xh seems to keep moving along appearing normal
avoiding debt issues
and newly M
without a second thought
I guess Im still baffled
peace