BM you are right I was still 'professing' love not so long ago for my STBXH. However, in retrospect it was b/c he is the father of my kids etc. I just hadn't realised it at the time. NG was a diversion, a very nice diversion, and the experience in itself has taught me a lot. One of those things is that I am now open to finding a new love. It doesn't have to happen immediately. I wasn' t looking for this dalliance, even when it happened I didn't see it happening until he kissed me. That's how relaxed I was about the whole evening. The point is I was open to it (which shocked even me) and so that's how I've learnt that maybe I am ready to let someone else into my life.
Life is getting very interesting here. S17 came round on Tuesday evening to tell me he wants to drop out of college and he is not enjoying it at all. He talked about getting a job for a year and then hopefully getting an apprenticeship as an alternative route to uni next Sept. He told me STBXH had told him that if he left full time education and got a job S17 would have to pay him �350/month in board as that is how much money he is currently getting from me and state benefits for S17. He has just put an offer in on a house and told S17 that without that money he can't afford to buy it. I told S17 that this equates to over half of Hs rent at the moment and also told him OW is not intending going back to work when the baby is born. S17 now feels like H is expecting him to help pay for the baby which as you can imagine hasn't gone down very well. I'm just sitting and watching the drama unfold as H starts to show his true colours at long last. I have told S17 however that he can't just drop out of college he has to have an alternative to go to. He has taken this onboard and has an interview this morning with a college who specialise in a particular industry.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
